Struggling with Suicidal Ideation is fully part of having AuDHD (ADHD and Autism) and it is OK to talk about it.
Here is a little glimpse in this part of my experience as Late Diagnosed Woman. Listen to your neuro-divergent friends when they say that they have “Dark Ideas”.

To buy a mobile home in order to get closer to our building site might seem counter-productive but it is a necessary step to take. But living with ADHD and Autism and going from a monotropic lifestyle to a poly tropic one is hard so I'm in the limbos, procrastinating.